Learning to Live with Vitiligo
Welcome
Welcome to my journey of self-discovery, rigorous honesty, sobriety, spirituality, and the healing of my mind and body
Hi, I’m Jennifer
Thank you so much for visiting my new Blog!! Over the past ten years, I have been on a journey of self-healing. I have learned so much about myself, and have grown from so many moments of truth along the way. After battling and recovering from trauma in my childhood, many health scares and a drug-addiction, I know I am a survivor. However, surviving and thriving are too very different things. I had to dig deep and become willing to ask for help. There have been many "teachers" in my life that loved me until I could learn to love myself; and they showed me a path that has brought me acceptance, self-love, and peace that I never knew existed. The most profound change for me was letting go of the shame that kept me prisoner for a long time. Learning to be vulnerable by opening up and sharing my experiences, has helped me heal mentally, physically, and spiritually. Hearing words from others such as "me too", "I feel the same way", and "that also happened to me", made me realize that I am not alone. The purpose of this blog is to show others that they are also not alone. I am also passionate about sharing thoughts and information on everything that helps me grow. Please read my first blog post below to learn more about me and my story.
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My Poems
Although I certainly do not consider myself to be a poet by any stretch of the imagination, I thought I would include a couple of poems I wrote to help me express how I was feeling at different points in my life.
My Addiction
You’ve been my best friend
Yet you have filled me with fear
You have beaten me down
‘Til I was no longer here
You have filled me with guilt
And stuffed me with shame
You’ve made me your prisoner
And only I am to blame.
You are all that I’ve had
You are all that I’ve known
You’ve chased loved ones away
And I felt so alone
Now, I am grasping at straws
From the depths of my soul
To rid me of you
And to make me feel whole
I step on the rung
Of this ladder I’ve made
As I climb a few steps
You start to fade
I am gaining in speed
Thoughts of you are long gone
I will never look back
Now I know I was wrong
I have entered a world
One not filled with strife
I have started to dream
And begin my new life
So I bid you farewell
No more shame...no more fear
A new day has dawned
And I am finally here.
I've Never Been That Girl
I’ve never been that girl
Whose confidence overflows
I’ve never been that girl
That everybody knows
Ive never been that girl who
Everyone says is pretty
I’m certainly not the one
That anyone can call witty
I’ve never been that girl
People clap for when I sing
And I’ve never been the one
That doesn’t worry about a thing.
I’ve never been that girl
Who doesn’t care what others think
I’ve never been that girl
Who can have only one drink
I’ve never been that girl
others praise for how she drives
(Most of the time my passengers
Feel lucky to be alive)
I’ve never been that girl
That remembers important dates
And I’m certainly not the one
That is never running late!
In the past I’ve always worried
About the girl that I am not
But….
Through my journey inward
I found a girl who has A LOT
I know that I’m that girl
Who will get up when she falls
I know that I’m that girl
Who will be there when you call
I know that I’m that girl
Who tends to overshare
I’m definitely too trusting
But you’ll always know I care
I know that I’m that girl
Who will always face her fears
I know that I’m the girl
who will wipe away your tears
I know that I’m the girl
Who will fight for what is right
I know that I’m that girl
Who always loves to write
I’m the girl who loves adventure
And not afraid of something new
I’m the girl who gets excited
About the dreams I will pursue
I know that I’m that girl
Who will always be your friend
I know I’m fiercely loyal
And will defend you to the end
Although I’m not that girl
I always tried to be
I love the girl in the mirror
Who is smiling back at me.